Sometimes you just got to laugh at yourself!
Over the past two weeks I have been running in circles. Don’t get me wrong, I have been insanely busy and I am feeling more and more valuable as the days speed by, but because of this break neck pace I have fallen into a few scenarios that have left me surprised and delighted.
Most of you know by now that I left NYC at the top of the year to find some peace and quiet on the sandy beaches of Florida. The life I had in New York, though a blessing in many ways, was starting to leave me feeling anxious, tired, and down right cranky. Clearly a liability in my profession and an annoyance in daily life.
What has thrown me for a loop however is that I am still as busy as hell!
Turns out that it was not the schedule I kept, the company, or the apartment that were slowly driving me nuts. In fact, I would argue that there is more work in front of me on a daily basis now. There is a hunger here for the things I have to share and the responsibilities I have, though totally different, require a focus and balance on par with running a successful life and business in the city. This all comes as a surprise. I had thought that by leaving where I was, finding a bit more quiet and nature, that I would have more time & energy and that I would be able to make this “grand decision” of what I wanted next in life.
LMAO!
The to do list is still long, I still have to make a living, I still require time to read, play at art, hang out with friends, and stare into space. Today in fact I am in charge of two old lady greyhounds, a mini poodle, a shitzu, a cat, hamster, and a fish. I have an appointment at lunch, another in the afternoon, I am meant to meet up with one lady for a Zumba lesson, another for dinner, and I just got a call from a yogi friend of mine that there is Chi Gong on the beach at sunset…
It all boils down to this: No matter where I live or what I do for a living I will be busy with the things that will make it all worthwhile. I can manage a life and a lifestyle that is satisfying no matter where I choose to plant my feet. I can share my talents with others, contribute to a tribe and a family, have time to play, to reflect, and in all of this the Universe will continue to throw surprises my way. The same is also true for you!
So now what?!
Well, I’m letting go of the notion that there is some grand decision to be made. I turns out that I have already made it. I made it when I was a little girl playing dress up in the mirror. When I spent hours reading The Hardy Boys in that old wicker chair. As I wake up each and every day and give thanks. Every time I meet the eyes of another. In the moments on the ocean. Naps mid afternoon. As I stroll through the farmers market to pick out next weeks menu. As I laugh, tweet, write, bitch, and moan. In every moment of my life I am simply LIVING my life.
“Where ever you go, there you are” So timeless and so true. I have to remember to focus on what is right in front of me and let go of the idea that there is some next big step that I need to take. I must breath and enjoy the here and now and let the future unfold as it will.
So as I get ready for another day in paradise I want to leave you with this- I met artist Shawn Gallaway last week and his music touched me. A day after his concert there was a Maya Healing Circle that we were both invited to join and he sang his song “I Choose Love” for us at the close. I think it is the perfect mantra for my next bit of the journey and I wanted to share the message with each of you. Wish me luck on staying connected to the “living” I am doing right where I am!!
You are my life and I am thankful for you.
Hara Om,
Shelley ;0)
Welcome to Vero Beach!! I am so happy your here!
Namaste.